Not Even Looking!

It is funny, i never meant to get back into this life...i had been in my one D/s relationship with a DOMME in college and then gone into a seven year committed lesbian relationship--bought the house, had the "career", even had a baby together...things change, people change.

Now, eleven years after i left D/s behind...i am staring it in the face again. i was honestly just looking for some casual fantasy sex--an actual cop, paramedic or doctor--the standard rape/rescue fantasy. i wanted a man to seriously, aggresively rape me and then tend me to as a rescue worker. Now, before i continue--this was NOT smart--i was looking for a fantasy to be fulfilled without establishing a safe relationship--my entry back into this life is relatively recent, so i am continuing to process the danger that i put myself in--thank GOD it worked out, but still--be safe everyone--safer than i was.

Anyways--was sorting through about eleven or twelve different responses i received that day--had a doctor, two police officers, a young (24 years old!) paramedic, one firefighter, a military police office and a police detective along with a few men who said they could "pretend" to be anything i wanted....and He answered--teased me, wouldn't tell me which profession he was--said he was either a cop, firefighter, doctor, or paramedic and asked me to explain my fantasy--i did. Said he liked the way i thought, would i like to make this an ongoing thing--do several fantasies? Offered that he could be VERY dominate if need be...i refused to talk to him further until he offered his profession--paramedic....and he was 51, married, with children--FUCK--WHY?! i would like to say that i took the high road--lived true to my hard core lesbian/feminist upbringing from the past eleven years, but i didn't--yep, i helped a man cheat on his wife of over 25 years...why? you ask?? Because i wanted to--simple as that.

i suppose i should explain the medical/rescue worker attraction---first, i am NEVER attracted to female cops/paramedics--only male and only OLDER males at that--something about the calm, controlled demeanor that is common among the profession. He was PERFECT--looked the part, acted the part, was in LOVE with his wife, his kids---he would never be mine, but DAMN it was tempting--too tempting. i also like that medical professionals and law enforcement have force behind them--medical people must hurt you often to help you--needles, painful exams and treatments, cutting, etc...and there is the added benefit of bondage in the form of restraints! Cops have the similar appeal, but not as strong--after all they only have the restraints! LOL

The downside, He has been wounded by his work--been in it too long, seen too much to let me enjoy any of the "perks" of him being a paramedic. Fortunately, i soon realized that the calm, the control, had NOTHING to do with his profession--it was his personality. So even without being able to tap into the paramedic side of Him, i got exactly what i desired--dominated.

mmmmmmmm :)