Emotions

Being a sub is, at times, emotionally difficult...on the one hand, i want to please my DOM and know that He finds me attractive and cares about me...but on the other hand there is the constant nagging in the back of my head that He would never have had ANY interest if i had not submitted...very difficult paradox to deal with. People will tell subs that DOMs do not care at all about the sub--that they only care because they are being serviced--and i cannot argue that..at least in terms of the relationships that i have had. but i also realize that this is the case--i am not blind to this...

there are D/s couples who ARE in committed long-term relationships--i know two couples personally who are...but it is a difficult journey to find that. Such a small percentage of the population is into D/s that it is a challenge to find people who even have similar tastes much less a person who you are attracted to...and then there is the problem that often those you are attracted to are already Master's to others...sometimes Master's will take on more than one sub and then the sub has to consider what that will mean--if being one of two or more subs is something that the sub can emotionally handle...

it is hard...this fine line between knowing that the relationships that i have been in are strictly sexual and wishing they would be more but having to keep logic and sanity in my head of the reality...i like to think that these paradoxes help me to become a better sub--that learning to focus less on what kind of relationship it is and just focus on providing my Master pleasure will help me to be as submissive as possible...i keep hoping