Hibernation
9 years ago
Monday, June 22, 2009
Useless
i recently found out that i have contracted genital herpes...the origin can never be specifically pinpointed but i have my suspicions. i have never had any problems like this before...not a single yeast infection, not a single bacterial vaginal infection, nothing...and suddenly my genitals are diseased with a lifelong virus that will pop its head up as a reminder of my filth from time to time. It is amazing how this is effecting me...masturbating is suddenly risky, playing with others is out of the question, my worth as a submissive is in question....i wish more than anything that i could turn back the last few months, that i could return to when i never thought about D/s, to when i was content being asexual...life was simpler then and far less sad.
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oh sweetie, let me comment first by saying this- there are many many people with genital herpes, alot of whom don't know it yet. There are also way to make it harder to spread to others, medications and such. And it certainly does not make you useless, nor should it make you turn away from who you have been happy being. did you know that it has become such a common thing that there are dating sites specifically for people with it? and your filth? hardly. it doesn't make you less of a person. i've been reading your blog for a while now, and i dont see you as any less simple for this. don't fret or fear yet, your life is not over, love.
ReplyDeleteOh my goodness. I have only just today stumbled across your journal and your entry, "Useless" is the first that I read and I must tell you, you are absolutely NOT useless. Life throws us curve balls, every now and then we blow a tire in a pot hole and yes sometimes we contact a sexually transmitted infection. This experience does not take away your validaty or worth - you are still a person who has much to contribute and experience.
ReplyDeleteTry to take a deep breath, even embrace a pity party for a day but then, research, learn, connect with others.
This is a hurdle not the end of the road.
Sending warmth.
~alexandria