Thank You Wayne and Paul

i am writing this as an open letter to Wayne and Paul--the two sweetest, kindest, most caring DOMs (and also two of the kinkiest!) that i know.

Wayne and Paul--

As You both know, i have been struggling lately with depression. The sadness of a variety of things has been overwhelming me and making me question so many things about myself and my future. Thank You both for what You gave me today--Wayne, for pullng me back, helping me feel sexy with Your words, reminding me of my worth as a submissive...Paul, thank You for being a really great friend, an honest and true man, for reminding me time and again that herpes does not have to mean the end to sexuality. Thank You BOTH for being REAL DOMS who know when the time to be flirty, kinky, sexual, and "typically" DOM is and when is a time to cocoon me and help me feel safe, comfortable and secure in my presence with You....

i love You both,

s.

Wondering

Do you ever wonder if anyone would even notice if you were gone? If disappearing from work, friends, family, etc would cause more than a minor blip in other people's lives--a blip that would easily be remedied? What do you do when that feeling begins to close in, to feel like a darkness settling around you? When disappearing feels like it would be a breath of fresh air?

A guy that lives by me just disappeared--he didn't show up for work on Monday, left his apartment unlocked with a note inside saying that he couldn't work anymore because he was too sick...telling his friends they could take any of his belongings that they needed. And he drove away. No one knows where he is, if he is still alive, anything...he simply walked away.